Woody and Groucho

I've been wanting to get Marr my Blue rat a new roommate since Floyd went and had a stroke, but I've been nervous due to the fact that Marr is so calm and easy going that Floyd just bossed him around and almost abused him. I didn't want that to happen again, so I figured that I needed to buy two rats that way whoever became the Alpha Rat there would at least be one other rat that would be nice to Marr. The only problem with having three rats is the cage I have is too small for three so I'd have to buy a bigger cage.
With these thoughts in mind I went to the local pet store and bought Woody and Groucho, they are two smaller fancy rats, Yeah I don't like that name either. Woody is a brown/tan and white rat, named after Woody Allen. Groucho is black and white and named after Groucho Marx. I'll get photos up soon. I wanted a nice two story cage that was the same size as the one I had before so it would still fit on the same table, but all they had were one story and three story cages. I went home with a three story mansion.
I think it went to Marr's head because he is now taking on a more aggressive Alpha Rat attitude. I'm going to wait a week or two to see if he keeps up the attitude but I think he's sick of being at the bottom and has risen to become dictator of the cage, I just hope he doesn't let the power go to his head and the two peasants revolt.




I went and saw Woody's new movie this weekend. I loved it! I saw that to all his movies but this is one of his better comedies that he's done since the 80's. I recommend it for anyone. It was good to see him in this one. In his last movie he didn't act in it and I missed him. There's just something funny about Woody Allen that just makes me smile and laugh even when he's not trying to be funny.
I love it!

Pete Yorn

This is a few days late but better then never. A great show that turned me back on to Pete Yorn. The energy was amazing and Pete was just great very friendly and talkative. we had a few sing-a-longs as well as a great setlist. I meet Pete's Cousin Max I believe it was loud in the club so I might be off a little. He's a great dancer by the way. He also ran the merchandise sales I got a few things. So thanks Max for the deal on the shirt!

here is the setlist for the show:
July 26, 2006 - Salt Lake City, UT - Club Sound

PY solo acoustic:
For Nancy
Vampyre
I Feel Good Again* (*Junior Kimbrough cover)
PY & Joe K.:
Lose You
You Never Knew
Closet
June
PY, Joe K., Sid & Mal
Alive
Georgie Boy
Pass Me By
Just Another
Burrito
Long Way Down
Black
Turn of the Century
There Is A Light That Never Goes Out* (*The Smiths cover)
For Us
Life on a Chain
The Good Advice
Suspicious Minds* (*Elvis Presley cover)

Encore:
PY & Joe K.:
All At Once
Full Band
: Never My Love* (*The Association cover)
Atlantic City* (*Bruce Springsteen cover) > Murray
Strange Condition
Crystal Village
PY solo:
EZ

Get it While You Can

The cookbook might be coming to an end, now I don't condone or agree with all that is in the book and yes I've read it. I do however think it's wrong that they are being banned so I'm supporting those that have a few extra bucks to buy one and not let the banners win.

My History in Music Volume Four; Everyone I Know Goes Away in the End

1.Annoying
2.Immortality;Pearl Jam- working at my first factory job, alone feeling ok about it
3.Fall on Me;R.E.M.- The first time I got to see R.E.M. in concert and it was amazing. I wore my dress, Davis was with me and we danced and laughed A girl next to us took her shirt off so that made us smile and after the show a group of four girls attacked me and ripped my dress off my body leaving me with only me shorts to go home in, it was a great night.
4.The Godfather Waltz;The Godfather Soundtrack- One day Scott, Davis, and I spent the whole day watching the trilogy. I love these movies. It's hard to express how much fun we had doing nothing at all really.
5.Nightswimming;R.E.M.- the last summer of my youth I discovered nightswimming, the act of swimming naked at night, the first couple of times I went alone and it became a religious experience fro me floating on my back in a lake or pond looking at the stars and moon. Later I would invite Scott and Davis to join me and that was fun. The last time I did it I invited a girl named Erin, she was shy so she wore her underwear which was just fine.
6.Supernaught; 1,000 Homo DJ's- this was a side project for Trent Reznor. Davis found it and turned me on to it. It reminds me of our last trip and time together. He was going to school at the university of Wyoming with Scott, so I went with him and stayed with the two of them a couple of days before school started, we had a time.
7.Hurt;Nine Inch Nails- I had a feeling before I left that I would never see my friends again, but then I also thought we were to close to ever separate. I should have trusted my feelings. While I was gone no one wrote me more then one or two letters, not even Davis my closest friend wrote me once a year for two years, even thought I wrote him nearly every week. Everyone I knew went away in the end
8.Alive;Pearl Jam- the night before I left I played my two most favorite songs, these two songs also helped me more than any other song to battle my depression and gave me the will to keep going.
9.It's the End of the World as We Know it(and I feel fine);R.E.M.- I love this one because I've had times where I felt like I'd reached the end of my world and so whenever I feel that way I try and remember this song and sing along.
10.Log
11.Fat Bottom Girls;Queen- My Trainer use to sing the chorus to this song everytime we go on our bikes.
12.Glycerine;Bush- I heard this at a friends house during thanksgiving and I thought it was beautiful. It always takes me back there when I hear it.
13. Visur Vant Sendan Rous;Bjork- I heard this from my favorite companion and who would later be a roommate in college. It's a haunting song. It's sung in Icelandic and I hope I never find out what she's saying, it can't match the emotion.
14.Alkaseltzer
15.Sometimes;Pearl Jam- When I came back my friends were all gone and I couldn't live in Evanston, WY anymore so I moved down to West Point, UT and moved in with my aunt and shared a room with my cousin Zack. This song reminds me of driving around alone exploring.
16.So Fast So Numb;R.E.M.- This songs reminds me of driving across Wyoming when I went to visit Davis at school and to visit Anna a girl I had meet in high school debate club competitions, but due to my misguided loyalty to Julie I never did anything but now I was free, we had a few good months together.
17.Pilgrimage;R.E.M.- The second job and last one before I leaving for college was at Autoliv an airbag factory in Roy/Ogden that my cousin helped me get. During this period I was getting into the early R.E.M. and reading and watching movies it was a fun time of exploration.
18.Here Comes Your Man;The Pixies- This is a RIck's song, a song I heard at dances and in my new friend's apt. An old favorite that took on a new life with new memories. I even knew a guy who sung it in a pizza parlor with his band.
19.It's Not Unusual;Tom Jones- There was a great thrift store in Rexburg, Id and I found this great record of Tom Jones and I loved it. This is one of those songs that brings out the playful side of me.
20.Dancing with Myself;Billy Idol- The 80's were big in Idaho, and this is one of those standard songs that everyone loves.
21.Forever;Ben Harper-This song is Jacqueline she gave me a mix with this song on it. She even used lines from the song to put on the inside of my ring. It describes her point of view perfectly.
22.Woody Allen- the next biggest influence in my life. I was introduced to him and his movies in my first semester of college once we moved to Salt Lake.

Ache In Reverse0

yellow peas that follow the written word of God translated into Greek to speak of strangers and the things they want to offer me I don't need another monkey on my back. Children and their parents feed the need to castrate myself before I can become one of these drones/ don't get me wrong I want children but do I have to ignore them and allow them to pick their nose like a man might dig a trench for survival? The wrong answers are always my fault and all I wanted was the customer to be helped and yet it’s my fault you’re rooting away in a dumpster full of grass and recycled paper we tell them we're saving the world while we help push the needle in deeper. I am not this animal I am the other. The reason we can't see heaven in the skies at night and the man next to me won't shut the hell up!
Is it normal to imagine what it might feel like to push a pencil in too deep to retracted? Let me reword that and say I love everything about you but that. That one true form of injustice. Why can't you shut up and listen to the music flow out into the hot night air and watch the homeless tap their feet. Or is it the rhythm of the pop cans hitting the street from dumpster level that keeps you going.
This poem is not about a burrito, but I’d love to buy you know and share it if we could just for once sit and talk face to face damn this limit. I will see you in the paper and movies and want ads for Bigfoot’s proof
All we ever want is proof
That we are in fact alive and not in some vacuum without friction or light to bounce off of.
The bananas might be free with one other choice but I will not dry them and save them for the day Teddy warned us about on his famous march up Bunker Hill or Bull Run or some God awful mountain/plain/swamp that men will spill their blood over to own
To gain a new disease.
Will he never shut up?
I hate this life you've made me I don't want it and it will never end
Damn that monkey card for all the good it will do.
I swear I was alive once and not just once but more than anyone else I have ever seen
And the good I did was as close to magic as we will ever see in this life...

Marshmallow Gun

At work today I got one of the best birthday presents from a fellow staffer. He made me a marshmallow gun out of PVC pipes. It's basically a blow gun but with a handle and a magazine on top to store the marshmallows. I can't wait to take it to the fair this year and feed the seagulls as well as enjoy myself.

I finished my last two papers this weekend over my birthday and I feel great, the stress levels have lowered and I'm enjoying myself a lot.

My marriage is going along well, we've come to a comfortable calm, the counseling is going well and I can tell it's making a difference. I still don't know if things will last in the end, it still comes down to how different we are in the way we look at life and the world around us.

I have a mystery that I can't solve; someone placed a children's book on hold for me and it was a great book, "Don't Worry Be Happy"




but everyone I've talked to said they didn't put it on hold for me so I'm wondering what is going on? Do I have a dual personality and it's more depressed than I am?

I'll keep you posted on the case if it evolves.

Thirty and A Day

My 30th birthday went off without a bang more of a whoopee cushion. I can't complain, I'm not dead and for now the hair on my back doesn't seem to be spreading as fast as it use to. Maybe I'm finally done with puberty. I got my first grade from my first class in library school and it's an A so I'm keeping my fingers crossed it's the next class I'm worried about. I just finished a 12 page paper for my Ethics class and I'm worried so once that comes in and it's good I'll be pleased.
I saw Clerks II yesterday and I have to say it was very funny and very lewd and disgusting and even offensive to most people, I LOVED IT! I enjoy being socked and appalled by humor so bring on the trilogy.
I'm thinking it's about time to get Marr a new room mate, I'm not going to get another hairless though. They are really cute but they don't seem to like being pet as much as the rats with hair do. Last night I finally got Marr to do the grinding of his teeth and bug eye dance that rats do when you pet them in the right place it was a great birthday present.

Candy From Mexico

Candy from Mexico

Jon will you pick me up some
Candy from Mexico?
The kind with the cheap plastic wrappers -
seem to stick to the candy.
Forcing you to suck on it,
lose the wrapper.

Jon, it’s the candy that
feeds the children’s family.
The ones waiting under the trees,
looking up to the top.
You said you made the summit,
But then we never saw you descend.

Jon on your way
can you pick me up some candy,
from Mexico.
Pepper bacon,
Water bottle used in soccer.
Marathons in the sun, the muddy hill.
Fear stains olive oil.
Hunter’s pay in the winter ring.
Shallow wave over shoulder.

If you have the time Jon,
would you be willing,
to pick me up some candy from
Mexico?

Pearl Jam is not DEAD

I had a great time in Los Angeles. The two nights of Pearl Jam were great! I'm not a die hard fan like some who goto several dozen shows each tour. I have a habit of two a tour. This tour I decided to see both the shows back to back. The pictures above are from my two nights. The first nights setlists was;
Pre-Opener Porch
Set 1 Release, World Wide Suicide*, Corduroy, Do The Evolution, Given To Fly, Severed Hand*, Jeremy, Gone*, Even Flow, Unemployable*, Wasted Reprise*, Better Man, Whipping#, Not For You/(Modern Girl)#, Inside Job*, Life Wasted*, Rearviewmirror
Encore 1 Elderly Woman Behind The Counter In A Small Town, Come Back*, Here's to The State of Mississippi#, Black, Crown Of Thorns, Alive
Encore 2 Last Kiss, Comatose*, Why Go#, Big Wave*, Baba O'Riley, Yellow Ledbetter

*-denote songs from the new album. #-denote songs I hadn't yet heard live and are from past albums.

I really love their new album so I was excited to hear a lot of it the first night. It was also my first time to see Ed do a pre-opener song, this is where he comes out before the opening band and does a song by himself. It was also the first time to see the band close the night with the lights on for two songs, usually you know the nights over when they turn all the lights on in the arena, but that first night they turned them on for Baba O'Riley and then the band began to leave and Mike started in to Yellow Ledbetter. He ended the song playing the national anthem. I haven't ever heard anyone attempt this outside of Jimi Hendrix. I was amazed and pretty close to Jimi's version. A great night.



The second nights setlist;

Pre-Opener Walking The Cow#
Set 1 World Wide Suicide*, Brain Of J., Animal, Marker In The Sand*, Severed Hand*, Even Flow, MFC#, I Got Id, Corduroy, Daughter/(It's Ok)/(I Believe In Miracles)/(Blitzkrieg Bop), Sad#, Garden#, Down#, Go, Better Man/(Save it for Later), I Must Not Think Bad Thoughts#, Porch
Encore 1 Man Of The Hour#, Off He Goes#, Footsteps, Once#, Alive
Encore 2 Big Wave*, Comatose*, State Of Love And Trust, Leash#, Rockin' In The Free World

*-denote songs from the new album. #-denote songs I hadn't yet heard live and are from past albums.

I was worried the second night wouldn't have as much energy as the first night but I was wrong. The second night there was a lot more audience singing and energy. It made for a great night. In the end I was worn out and left very sour the next day. I might be getting too old for rock shows, but then again I might not.
the highlights were Garden, Off He Goes, Leash, and the trilogy in reverse order.

It was hard leaving for home but then again I'm not a huge California fan so It wasn't to hard to leave.

Rest In Peace Floyd

Right before my trip I had to do one of the harder things in my life. Poor little hairless Floyd had a stroke and wasnt able to eat or walk, so I had to put him to rest. So I hope you're at peace and sleeping well, and there are no cats or cages.

My History in Music; Falling to Stand Up Volume Three

It's been awhile sorry.

1.Weinerschitzel; The Descendents- If there were one song I put on nearly every mix I ever made it would be this. A great song that always makes me smile.
2.Dingo
3.What's the Frequency Kenneth?; R.E.M.- This is one of two albums I listed to more than any other in my senior year on High School. From the moment I played this CD I loved it and it makes me want to shake my ass.
4.Animal; Pearl Jam- The second greatest album of my senior year, I remember getting up early and driving to school during the winter, it was so cold that the tape player in my truck played the whole first side of the tape slow, just before I got to school it started sounding normal.
5.Perfect Blue Buildings; Counting Crows- this is Joe Nuss, my first friend after I got back from Alaska and anything off this album makes me think of him.
6.all apologies; Nirvana- the end of my senior year Kurt killed himself and it affected my life at the time I was also thinking about suicide and it almost seemed inviting when he did it.
7.Let Me In; R.E.M.- a tribute to Kurt and a great song about not belonging and feeling guilty for it. It touched a chord in me I still feel.
8.power
9.Detachable Penis; King missile- This is Carolyn, she was the flirt and main girl in my group of friends, she and Andy dated for awhile, but she flirted with all of us. After Andy broke up with her she hung out with me and Davis a lot more. Soon the two of them got close, she always liked the funny perverted songs.
10.Ballon Man; Robyn Hitchcock and the Egyptians- The first "funny" song that I really loved that still had a goofy message but at the same time it helped me not to take life so seriously.
11.Radio Friendly Unit Shifter; Nirvana- this is my second favorite Nirvana song and it reminds me of two things, graduated High School and my first rock concert seeing Nirvana live will always be a great moment in my life especially after the fact he killed himself soon afterwards.
12.Closer; Nine Inch Nails- During the summer after I graduated I was still lonely and missing Julie. I went my senior year without a girlfriend out of some form of loyalty. Davis thought it was stupid and Carolyn loved the challenge to try and take my virgin lips. So the two of them conspired against me and one night after a group party they took me for a drive. We parked near a park and Carolyn told me she wanted me to do whatever I wanted to her. After 18 years any boy would jump at the chance and so we began to kiss and soon Davis joined the mix, he lifted her shirt up and I saw my first real live breast. It was magical. I went home a virgin but my lips didn't.
13.Big Time Sensuality; Bjork- it was nearing the end of the summer and I was working at Taco Time, when a friend came in and had the biggest grin on his face, which wasn't abnormal for him. I smiled back and then she walked out from behind him and I was hit by a semi. Standing infront of me was JULIE! She had come back even if she was a year late. I gave her a hung and couldn't speak, Nathan was all laughs. We made a date to meet the next day.
14.Ring of Fire; Social Distortion- She had come back to goto the UofU. I went to her house at about 6 am and spent the whole day together and the next couple of days together. I wasn't going to make the same mistake and told her how I felt we spent as much time as we could together before school started. We shared our first kiss one night after I worked in the parking lot of Taco Time.
15.Unhappy Birthday; The Smiths-john was julie's boyfriend when she came to town, they didn't last long, but I hated him until she left and we became friends, never really close but we had fun. We talked often about the pain she had caused us. This was his song for her, I'd adopt it soon.
16.Satan's Bed/Already in Love; Pearl Jam- I would goto SLC as often as I could to visit Julie once she started school. This album came out about the same time and I would listen to it while I went to classes with her.
17.Self Esteem; Offspring- Julie told me often about her abusive boyfriend back in CA and how this song reminded her of their relationship. Once again I soon adopted it.
18.Lounge Act; Nirvana- This is my favorite Nirvana song. It fits perfectly for what happened next in my life. Once Julie came back it was like blood in the water. Six of my friends that I knew and trusted, who had all spent time with me as I talked about how I felt towards Julie, during the year and a half while she was in CA. These same six friends all attempted to get romantic with her, while me and Julie were together.
19.Losing My Religion; R.E.M.- My closets friend and the one that hurt the most that went after Julie was Joe. He knew better than the rest and he still went after her and did it openly. After one party where the two of them spent the whole time alone they came to me for a ride back to her place. The nerve, but of course I said yes. The three of us got into my truck and the first song to play was this one. It was the first time I realized what the song was about. You need to know that the phrase "losing my religion" is a southern phrase that means at the end of my rope or wits end. I have never been betrayed like I was then. The only thing that hurt me more was the fact that Julie didn't try and discourage any of them. I would later end my friendship with them both over this night.
20.Big Long Now; Nirvana- it was worse now then it had ever been my best friend had betrayed me and my girlfriend, my first love had not been honest with me or even monogamous she was having a relationship with seven guys at one time. I felt like a fool and felt alone, I fell into a dark deep pit. I had given Julie my ring and now I wanted it back so I called her and asked her to find it and I'd come and get it. I met her at the door of her house, a door I spent many wonderful moments passing through. She opened the door and I held out my hand saying nothing, she put the ring into my hand and I walked away I've never seen her since.
21. Country Feedback; R.E.M.- This is the saddest song I've ever heard it still affects me like no other song can. It brings me to that dark place every time I hear it. Soon after I lost my friends and Julie my first love my depression worsened. For two years I was beaten down to a fragile shell and my one hope was my first love and friends. Then those were lost to me, they acted as a catalyst that took me all the way to the bottom. I found myself in my room one day after hunting with my dad. In the corner was my rifle and pistol. I took the loaded handgun out of it's holster and pulled the hammer back and stared down the barrel, looking into the dark. I took one last look around my room looking for a reason not to pull the trigger. I saw my crate of poems and knew if I killed myself no one would really know why I did it because no one would be able to read my handwriting, so I decided to wait until I typed up my poems before killing myself. During that process I got some help and by the time I had finished I didn't want to kill myself anymore.
22.Fight; The Cure- Lucky for me I soon found help by going to a shrink and talking about my problems and why I didn't want to live anymore. One of the major factors besides the shrink was my friends Scott and Davis. Scott had made me a mix with this song on it and it gave me hope each time I heard it.
23.Hairless

Pictures

These are my boys! Floyd the little hairless and Marr the Big Blue. They are great!

In a Thesis

I just found out I am going to be mentioned in a Doctrial Thesis, due to me giving aid at the library so that is very cool.

What's The 4th to You?

I found the reason and it's mine.
Last week of school for two of my three classes so I'm going to have some free time soon which will be very nice, I'll be able to come and visit more. I need to update my history in music. Last time I did volume 2 and I made it all the way up to volume six so I have a lot of typing to do to catch up. So that will be fun, plus my California trip is at the end of this week so that will provide me with things to write to you about. So until then carry on and we'll speak later...

It's good bye to Cool Hand Luke as my Photo on my Profile and Hello to the real me. I wish I looked as good as Newman, but here I am in the Flesh. Mind the Glasses they are the old ones soon I'll have a PIC with the new ones on here for the Fans.